decisions

Happy Friday everyone!

One day a long time ago my ex boyfriend asked me… what’s your favorite day of the week. I said Saturday, of course! And he said… you are lying, because every single Friday morning you wake up and say: Im so happy today is Friday, or Thank God its Friday, or something of the sort, and I never hear you say that on a Saturday. Funny.

Anyway, so its Friday, I have started my antibiotics. I’m taking the afternoon off and having lunch with B…. hummm C, behave!! Tonight I’m going out for a bite to eat (not proper restaurant dinner, but rather tapas- which is so dangerous on a diet…) with my parents, my brother + sister in law, and a couple of family friends that are visiting. It will be hard not to have wine … *sigh*

I won’t stress about the diet this weekend… so, ok, let me say that it’s not that I have given up, no, BUT, I am at 61 kg, which has been my weight for so many years… (every time I went up to 64 I always got back to 60-61, and this forever and ever since I can remember… ) so, I have a tendency to think..“I’m fine like this, don’t get to obsessed with losing more, follow a healthy Mediterranean diet and eat sensibly and it will be fine…” but then I always end up back at 63-64, but now that I am back at 60-61this is why I am being so lax about it lately, its my little ritual of 4kg up, 4kg down. However, I am determined to lose another 3-4 kg this time and I know I can do it. So, I will get back on track soon. Monday – I am being realistic and the weekend is not going to work as PP days but I will be sensible, I promise!

Also, I need to lose those 4 kg because yesterday I took another very important decision: on the 13th of November I will quit smoking (again!). Last time I quit smoking I gained 4 kg. I allowed myself to gain those 4 kg in order to fight against the urge to smoke, as comfort and to make the withdrawal process easier.. in my head I said, eat away and when you reach 4kg STOP eating. And it worked, and I quit smoking and I even lost 2 of the 4 kg. I didn’t smoke for over a year… But Alas! Some issues early this year made me restart smoking, not as much as before, I actually don’t smoke that much anymore, but smoking a little or a lot is still smoking and this needs to stop. So, I will not allow it to happen again and by “it” I mean gaining weight as a consolation price for not smoking AND re-fall in the ugly habit of smoking.

So, as of the 13th of November the blog will be twofold… dukan and cigarette withdrawal.. yes sir!

Happy Weekend!!!