Missing in action!!

(for some reason blogger doesnt respect my parragraphs and it appears all like a huge chunk... sorry!) Wow, it's been so long since my last post and so many things have happened. Related to this blog I can say that I have gained back all the weight lost + a couple extra kilos. I am not going to try to make excuses although I do believe there is a logical explanation. Since the begining of this year I have been TTC (with no luck) and also have done 2 IVF cycles (again, with no luck) therefore the weight little by little went up and up and up. First I have to say that I am 38 years old, therefore I knew that my chances were not as good and at first I did not expect to get preagnant immediately, which was fine, and I continued with Dukan (jan, feb) to first of all lose what I had gained over christmas (2 kg) and to continue with my objective, thinking that if I did get pregnant whatever weight I lost before was a good margin for the extra weight I would gain with the pregnancy. I was not too sure that Dukan and TTC went too well along and therefore in march I decided to do Dukan but only the consolidation phase so I would get fruit and some carbs and my body would be better prepared. After another couple of months came the anxiety of not being able to conceive and I not only abandon the diet completely but ate far too much due to the anxiety. At the begining of summer after 6 unsuccessful months TTC I already reached my starting weight of 64.5 plus I started an IVF cycle. With the anxiety, the hormones and all that goes along with that, now the summer is over, 1st IVF did not work, I gained another couple of kilos and now I am at almost 66 kg and no baby. I did a second unsuccesful IVF cycle and have a couple of frozen embrios that I will go for in a couple of months as I need a rest from all the anxiety and maybe loose 3 kgs (I am trying to be realistic) in the meantime still trying the natural way just in case. Obviously - or maybe not so obviously for those who really believe in the healthyness of Dukan - I will not do Dukan. I really feel I do need to do what we call a "mediterranean" diet or a more balanced diet that includes a small amount of carbs in the morning, some fruit, many vegetables, protein, no sugar, no alcohol... I am not saying that Dukan is unhealthy and I have seen the amazing results of some fellow dukan bloggers, but I also think that there is a moment in life for everything and that if when TTC you need to be healthy 100% then I feel more confortable with the typical food piramid. So that's all folks!! This is why I have been away, this is the logical explanation (not an excuse but an explanation) of my weight gain. I am not confortable at all with this gain, actually until I reached the 64 kg that were my starting weight last August I was more or less ok with it. But after going over that mark I started feeling not so good. Anyway, although I have been absent I have kept up more or less regularly with your blogs so I did not abandon you I only became a silent blogger-colleage!! :o) Here are the statistics: Starting weight August 2011: 64.4 kg Lowest weight on Dukan: 59.6 kg (december 2011) Highest weight this summer: 66.7 kg Actual weight: 65.5 (this morning) cheers!! and happy Wednesday!

Summary work-week 1

Lost since monday: 2.5kg in 3 days of attack + one PV.

Yesterday I took the day off and had lunch with my mom. It was meant to be the 4th day of attack, but it turned into a PV day. Had a nice salad with lettuce, onion, tuna, asparragus, tomato and a tiny bit of corn that i tried to avoid and two eggs sunny side up and some green peppers as main course. I had 4 (literaly FOUR) french fries (hummm) that came with the eggs although I had asked not to have them. So temptation was huge and i dipped FOUR fries on the runny egg yolk (yummy!)

Anyway no harm done as yesterday's weight was 62.3 and today 62.0 yay!!!
So, as planned first week of attack -2.5 kg (which might be just 2 if you dont take the weekend water weight into account) Anywhooooo its great for the morale and the will power.

Two colleagues celebrated their birthday today and brought in an amazing breakfast... did not lift my bumb from my chair.. not even to whish them a happy birtday (not too nice... but i have zero will power) but as soon as all the food is gone I will go to their desk to congratulate them... oh well!!

Off to Valencia tomorrow morning... hope to behave food wise as Dukan will be difficult... but already feel good about kick starting the dukan challenge again!

On Tuesday I will let you know how it went!
Have a great weekend

Whoosh!

I guess the holiday weight was … very … hummm… temporary! After only one day of PP attack I lost 1,2 of the 1,4 gained.
However, as on the Thursday before leaving my weight was 59,5 - lowest point – I will rephrase and say I gained 1,8 on the holiday… so still 600 grs to go. Wouldn’t it be perfect to lose them between today and tomorrow?? It would also be unrealistic, so I settle for losing them by Friday – better, right?

Today’s menu:
Breakfast: low fat latte and oat bran toast (with a tinsy bitsy bit of raspberry marmalade)
Snack: hardboiled egg
Lunch: 3 small homemade hamburgers (obviously no bun, no cheese, no salad, just the meat!)
Snack: Actimel 0%
Dinner: omelette with ham and cheese

Tonight is the first episode of season 2 of a great TV series, you might have heard about it, it’s called Downton Abbey, I am so looking forward to it! And it’s great that it’s on a Tuesday as it was one of the days where there is really nothing on TV!!! – I don’t really watch that much TV but its true I enjoy about an hour or so of TV in the evening – I don’t count the news as TV time…

Anyway off to watch my tv show and do my nails